Still very sad. Although I have done really well eating wise...
The first day he passed, I didnt eat anything at all. The second day, I had some soup and drank a little too much.... over the weekend I remained under 800 calories a day... usually eating only one meal and drinking. Monday, I fasted for over 24 hours and then had 600 calories of cabbage soup and ginger snaps. (got hungry...) Today, I had black coffee, and then some cheese and crackers before 5 hours of dance (300 calories) and then I had some soy milk (130 calories) and then nibbled on some candy corn (ill round up to 100). Todays total was about 600, or under.
I have more dance in a half hour and im exhausted with two midterms back to back tomorrow, that i couldnt study for yesterday because i had a midterm today :(
I need this week to be over. now.
aw... holy crap...how do you survive... i feel sorry for myself for a 12 hour day, just because im tired...
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Im still so sorry about your grandfather.. it must be incredibly hard.... :(
But if your going to find something positive in all your hard work, and everything thats happening, it seems its keeping you occupied.
You've done an absolutely wonderful job with food! And with all that dancing ! Im so jealous of your dancing :) i said it before, and ill say it again! its only a few days left now! So stay strong sweety!!
Didnt do well today though :( binged on two pieces of pizza but thats all ive eaten and hopefully all i will eat
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