Its time to make some plans.
I am struggling... really struggling... to fight my depression. My self-esteem has completely disappeared, and my will/want to do anything seems to be fading with it. Thankfully, I have you girls. This year is a very lonely year for me... my roommate situation is really horrible... and my boyfriend and I have a relationship that is constantly in need of healing. My head is spinning just thinking about the disorganization of my life and how I have let everything go. I need to make some plans, I need to get my body back, I need to be skinny.
I am not going to weigh myself until November 1st, because I honestly think it might depress me more. If I can do my very best until then perhaps the number wont be as bad to start with.
Since it is cold out, it is the perfect time for the cabbage soup diet. A long time ago, when I hit a plateau at 117, just eating the soup twice a day helped me drop to 108. I am home for a three day weekend (fall break) but when I get back to school, I will be making a huge cauldron of cabbage soup and living off of it, and only it. I am going to bust my ass at the gym and in dance EVERYDAY because at this point, I am disgusting. I just need to kick depressions ass before it kicks mine.
you and me both sweety.... And it must be faith (because i NEVER do soup diets :P haha) but i was thinking about doing the soup diet myself. not cabbage soup tho, but like veggiesoup, tomatosoup, and maybe even broccoli (although its milk in it) soup in the weekends. etc :)
ReplyDeleteIm not gonna postpone it to monday as i always do. Im gonna start tomorrow morning. or im starting NOW, but im not eating anymore today, so the official start is tomorrow. (wed).
when do you get home??
Im gonna go for at least a 30 lbs loss by xmas...have you been thinking about your goal? or do you wanna wait until you weigh in at nov 1st?
I mean. we know more or less what we are so we might as well set a goal to work towards even tho we're not weighing in.
what do you think??